9/9

the last guy I smoked with
said I was wasting my cigarettes
the smoke is lost if you don't inhale it
it has to leave a mark on your body
before it touches the world around you
I bleached my scars from that time
I got into an accident with my friend
and then my brows

I look pretty
I'll do this forever now
and ingest the remaining paste 

because I hope this prettiness leaves a mark
I saw two butterflies today 
white, then yellow
The other day it was a green dragonfly
and they'll all die soon, I know
So now I carry their wings in my wallet
I went home happy
I bought 250 groceries
I ate the valencia oranges my dad sent
and the vitamins my mom bought for me
Then I light a cigarette 
tobacco, clove, inhaling
Hoping the day leaves a mark on me

~ ៷